Despite everything that's happened, I still strongly believe that this is the best way to cope. When something in your life that seems so horrible happens, it seems more stressful and overwhelming ..but when it happens repeatedly in a cycle over and over again people usually learn from their mistakes and learn better ways to cope, but in this case.. I've done everything and still I'm here. It's kind of like, my heart says one thing but my mind says the other - which one do you choose to follow? Ugh, it's hard but I know I'm stronger than this. And for the first time, I've been happy. EVEN THOUGH I usually get 3-5 hours of sleep everyday, I feel healthier. It feels like a burden has been lifted up.. actually more like a heavy weight. I feel like I'm starting to feel like myself, but more mature because of the lessons this whole year has taught me. I'm just happy it's all done, but whats happening right now is just the aftermath. It's normal. Even S & I were talking about it. Everything built up and it was suffocating us, so we just decided to do ourselves a favor. =)

BUT, info on my summer?
It's amazing - but going by too fast. Haha, I think I see the same people almost everyday, or every other day since summer started. It's basically C, R, M, A, K. =) Doing the most random things just being together & shit.. I've accomplished a lot this summer. I've had fun and at the same time I learned so much about myself. I finally know where I stand and with who.. and it's obviously with my bfffffff's <3

P.S: We'll fucking miss you Cece, we'll all visit soon